Numb Still

Been a hectic few days, though I've been here for a good 3 weeks, this week really is the start of my work life here... Had lots to do and still have lots of catching up still so I know what I'll be doing this weekend; work...

Life in general's not too bad, people are nice and friendly, still acclimatising to the long days tho (pukul 8 malam terang lagi, Maghrib masuk kol 8.10). I do still feel numb I guess, didn't want to come here in the first place but now that I am here, I don't feel anything. Happy? Depressed? Not really sure... I guess it's the work and a few mates that's taken my mind of things. There are days that I feel less than an inmate but there have been good days, nope, not full days, more like good times really.

One thing that never went away or will never go away is the thought of my family. I do miss them terribly. 3 weeks to go til I get to see them, my queen, my babies and me mum. And nasi lemak and roti canai and rojak and super supreme pizza and maggi goreng and saturday night soccer and my guitar and my premacy and hd tv and low yat and i can go on all day...
I miss home.

a new day will begin

Sadly today had to say farewell to a good friend, one of them boys in the picture... Some ways i'm cheesed off at him coz due to his "issues" if you like, i have to come to oz, be away from my wife and children for long periods of time, nak makan susah, nak semayang susah etc. but then i thot hey i'm still better off than a lot of people, it's not the end of the world, maybe God is testing me... aku redha...

Speaking of God, hari ni aku dapat semayang Jumaat, finally found a mosque (dekat je sebenarnya) a Turkish one tapi sama je i mean in terms of rukun. Ada nampak a few malaysian/indonesian tapi tak sempat nak tegur pasal diorang hilang tengah aku tunggu nak beli kebab (yum yum), lapar masa tu, dah la dah banyak hari tak jumpa daging. Nak balik pulak, a Somalian taxi driver gave me a free ride back to the office, Allahuakbar God is Great, takyah aku pening kepala nak panggil bos aku datang ambik...

So, eve of a new day, member dah blah, am in a foreign country, no real friends to talk to, trying to make new friends, family bzillion miles away (thank God there's skype), nothing here in my name other than this laptop and my suitcase, hmm sounds daunting now... Allah grant me strength Amin

Went on a trip to the mines today, actually drove west from perth to kalgoorlie yesterday and drove to koolyanobbing this morning from kalgoorlie (cool names kan?). Had a meeting bla bla bla but the interesting bit was the conversations in the car. I mean one way to kalgoorlie was close to 600km yeah so loads of time...

Apa lagi, banyak la soalan2 pasal ugama ni keluar... Macam biasa, it's not questions 'nak tau sebab nak tau' but rather 'nak tau tapi taknak terima'... Example: kenapa kena semayang 5 waktu? kenapa antara maghrib dengan isya' waktu pendek, yang lain panjang? siapa yang tulis Al-Quran? ada tulis dalam Quran tak boleh bunuh orang? ada tulis dalam Quran boleh bunuh non-muslims? so all non-muslims are damned to hell, even though they did good things? ish we were at it for a few hours la pokoknya....

Tried my hardest to answer the 'inquiries' with what I know but that's the point that I realised, I don't know a whole lot! So... the positive take-out from that experience was: I need to read Al-Quran...

"Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah, Nabi Muhammad pesuruh Allah", I'll start from there...

apology day?

Its called Swan Bells, probably because it's a bell tower and its close to swan river i guess, dunno never bothered to ask... it's on the way to work so thought i'd take a snap of it

Today is the day Australia apologises to a generation of indigenous people for taking them away from their families and placing them in say foster families. Don't have an opinion on it since i don't really understand what happened but i guess now is the healing process

Gajah dengan gajah apa cite? Macam biasa tapi hari ni sparring lain sikit, openly declaring dia tak suka dia tapi buat2 macam kelakar so declaring without declaring anything...

Eenntah la, yang aku tau, lagi 24 minggu lagi aku nak netap kat sini... so stay strong man, i can either winge about it or make the most of my time here, semalam dah start jogging (and a lot of walking) wuhuuu good on ya mate!

petang di cottesloe

great view ey? taken from the apartment of my colleague... am temporarily staying about 0.5km from his place but the view is not as good la... nanti donno when, i'll move there, tapi tak tau la for the better or boleh jadi bak kata orang keluar mulut rimau masuk mulut buaya...

speaking of pepatah, another one that's been going around in my head is gajah dengan gajah bergaduh, kancil mati kat tengah tengah... exactly apa yang jadi kat aku sekarang, can't publish names for fear of reprisals but lets just say that i didn't wanna be here in the first place and what i thought might happen has happened, and i'm caught between a rock and a hard place... whoa! another cliche... on a roll tonight

janji ada kerja sudah kata bini aku

on the couch in oz

'Serendipity' on tv, washing machine running and the odd sound of vehicles passing by the house, it's sunday afternoon and i'm on the couch...

Just finished setting up the page, really struggling what to write, what would be appropriate or whether it should be

Oh well, maybe not today, can't concentrate now, they're about to meet each other again.... takdir ke apa?